My Darling Girl,
I started writing this a bit in advance because I knew it would be a challenge. I am overwhelmed with feelings of gratitude for what this past year has brought. Both in the actual growth from couple to family and through that my own personal growth. I am the classic cliché mom. The phrases you hear over and over from new parents are cliché because they’re true. You really never knew you could love someone so much. You never knew how hard being a parent could be and how much of a blessing at the same time.
Personally, this past year has brought out both my good and bad. I realized I have to keep my perfectionism in check. I can get very idealistic about what I want for you and for our family, which in itself is not bad, but if not balanced with reality it can be a slippery slope. To my surprise, I found out I’m more patient than I that I would be; much more actually, not that situations don’t ever get the best of me. You have brought so much joy to our lives. Seeing you in all that you are still takes my breath away and brings a tear to my eye.
As we begin your next year, I have goals for myself. I want to grow in confidence as a mother. I want to respectfully listen to those who have already been down this road and learn from them or let their words roll off my back. I need to remember even in these early years that you are your own person. You may look like me but you will have your very own personality, thoughts, dreams, and interests. I need to work on staying calm in moments of frustration so that you can also learn how to handle frustrating situations. Most importantly, I want you to know that you are loved always.
But now let me tell you a bit about what you are like as a one year old. You are still a big lover of your food. For your birthday dinner I made you pot roast, which is one of your favorites (just like your daddy). You are starting to stand on your own more and more, but I wouldn’t go so far to say that you have that mastered quite yet. You love to turn on light switches and clap to the beat of the music. You like to wave “bye, bye” and when dad pulls up from work you emphatically yell “Dada!” You love being outside, and you especially love to play on our front steps.
I love you so much my sweet little Miss. Your sweet smile is my sunshine, and your hugs and kisses melt away all bad things.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Happy 1st Birthday Isla Rose!